"A regret is a remainder of things: They stay in the heart. Heart-break is a regret, a constant remainder of its the people not the emotion."

As usual I cried yesterday, I feel so weak when I cry. I feel like crying is a weakness but most people will disgress with me, and I respect that of course. But I just think a little differently. . . but I have been reassured plenty of times that crying is not a weakness. So, suppose it can be a strength or a weakness depending on how you look at it.

As is love. Depending on how one looks at 'love' it can be a weakness or a strength. This also depends on the type of person you are. I used to see love as a weakness, but now I see it as a strength. Everytime I see the person that I love, I feel a wave of courage and strength wash over me, a rapid pace of the heart and just the usual feelings of love, but of course with each love comes a disillusion and I'm sure the MAJORITY of us have known such disillusionments; betrayal, pain, agony, frustration, and so on. And if you are an artist or a poet . . have you notice something? ever notice that. . . the heart of an artist is more prone to fall in love than anyone that of anyone else. Yes believe it or not we are more prone to fall in love quickly. Such is the truth, from what I have heard. . . I do not know if anyone here will agree with me on that. Quite frankly when we learn of such disillusions we blame it on the emotion of the 'love'.

But it is not true, love is a beautiful, pure, and clean feeling that does not know the meaning of the words jealousy, hatred, and so on. It is the people who know of such feelings. Being human beings it can be difficult to express the feelings of love, sometimes we refer love in a platonic sense, love can be used as an over-rated thing of it can be used in the most tender ways. Usually most people address love as a feeling they wish not to feel, but its something that can not be avoided.

Pain, disillusionment, and other more 'darker' emotions are more easier to portray and some of us are masters of portraying such emotions, we tend to mask our true emotions with dark ones, I shall confess that my exterior does not truly reflect my interior; my interior is that of a soft-spoken crybaby who only seeks love and company from human beings. Yes, I do distance myself from human beings, close ones, even my own lovers. I should not be doing as such, I should be closer to them. One day I will be alone, my parents will day, my sister will make her life, and love comes and goes.

Such is the way for all of us. Instead of distancing oneself from the people who care about you the most, approach them, tell them that you love them. You'll wake up one day and poof- the people who love you so much are gone. Yes, we all feel pain, we all cry, its only natural. You can not rely on your 5 senses they decieve, only your TRUE sixth sense: your intuition counts. Your conscience is repeating to you 5 ideas that don't work and 1 that does. Most of us are in tune with our sixth sense and blindly we let our other 5 senses lead us, this is what people assume errors are defined are. Errors are not a thing to shun, frown upon, or simply put away. Errors can be learned from and corrected. . .

Our hearts are parted in two, and we must find our other half of the heart, it will always take us time. Maybe on this plane, this life we don't find it. But we do find our other half of our heart, eventually. At one point I thiught I had found that second part, but I was horribly decieved by the five senses, yes. I could hear his voice, I could see him, but not touch him, the senses decieved me. But as usual I ignored my intuition. . . everyone does the same.